Sober

​Sooo… Earlier this month I decided to stop drinking alcohol and smoking. Today it hit me. So now it’s like… okay I’m back. Me. The real me. The ADHD me. The me that truly doesn’t like people. The me that’s not gonna hold back. The me that’s REALLY gonna figure this LIFE thing out. I’m still trying to figure out what I want to do. I’m still trying to learn things about myself. It’s hard. It’s hard as hell. I’m a mom. My child is very hyper so there’s that. I want to make sure that he’s getting the education he needs, the playtime he needs, the love he deserves, etc. It’s all hard but definitely possible. I’m tired. I’m worn out. I feel like all of my energy is gone. I’m just trying to figure it out. 

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